So I've been getting really annoyed with Facebook lately. I'm constantly complaining to John about all the things I see and read that make me so angry. Like raging I want to reach through my computer and slap people angry. He says this isn't healthy and the most logical solution is stay off of Facebook. I have considered this. It seems my life might be much improved by releasing myself from this addiction. But like all facebook-aholics, I say I could quit anytime, I just don't want to right now. Its a love/hate relationship. I LOVE seeing people's pictures. Things my friends found interesting, pictures of their growing children, smiling faces, cute animals, etc. I love getting updates on important events in people's lives. But I HATTTEEEE ignorant people who clearly have never done research on the opinions they are spouting off about, people who judge other people's ways of life, people who can't spell the simplest of words, improper use of their/there/they're and your/you're. People who get on their soapbox and tell me how their religion is the right one, their political party is the best. SOOOOOO many times I find myself commenting on particularly idiotic posts to tell these people how I feel, to tell them its people like them that make this world a worse place to live in. I type and type until eventually I realize it will be a fruitless effort. I delete everything I have just written, take a deep breath, and move on with my life. Then I think to myself maybe I'm doing the world an injustice by just sitting back and quietly watching without taking a stand. Maybe it would be healthier for me to be completely honest and speak my mind. I would definitely lose some friends in the process but I would probably be doing myself a favor. I think about this a lot. About being 100% totally and completely honest. I am always so afraid of hurting people's feelings or making them feel bad in anyway. Seeing someone in pain hurts me. But now I think I am the one hurting. Not to be too dramatic, but all the overly polite bullshit is kind of killing my soul.
So here I am, unsure of the next step to take. Do I get off of Facebook? Do I change 30+ years of being a nice person and start telling people like it is? Maybe little by little I can start to be more honest, get on Facebook less and less, stand up for my opinion when I think it is warranted, let other things go that don't really matter. Maybe that will give me peace of mind. Maybe I should just go through my friend list and delete the repeat offenders. I've done that before but now when a friend of mine comments on someone else's status (that I'm not friends with) it shows up in my news feed. Its like I can't get away. Needless to say, aholes in real life and aholes on Facebook are probably the reason I am such an animal lover. I'm going to post this blog entry on Facebook now and maybe it will make some people evaluate the things they put out into the world. Maybe it will make some people angry, like who does she think she is. Maybe I lose some friends. Maybe I gain some. Either way right after that I'm going to get off my computer, hug my dogs and enjoy the rest of my Sunday. And when John gets home from work he's going to get a big hug too.
Sincerely,
Tina
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