M.I.A.

So I went missing there for awhile. Not even really sure why I stopped blogging. I think the episode of Family Guy where they are discussing the Godfather explains it best:

Lois: Explain yourself, what didn’t you like about it?
Peter: It insists upon itself, Lois.
Lois: What?
Peter: It insists upon itself.
Lois: What does that even mean?
Chris: Cause it has a valid point to make, it’s insistent!
Peter: Cause it takes forever getting in, and you spend, you spend like six and a half hours, and then, you - I can’t even get through, I haven’t even seen the ending.

I love Peter.

So I grew disillusioned with the whole thing (blogging, not my wedding, still super "illusioned" about that) but now I'm getting interested again. Aren't you excited!?? No, no, I know no one really cares about our wedding as much as I'd like to think they do.  Underneath all my crazed optimism lurks a secret realist.

So let's see...what new wedding details do I have to share? Hmmmm. Well since we are doing a destination wedding I won't have to take care of most of the details until we are there. Like picking out my flowers, menu selection, cake, etc. I'm still 110% happy about our decision to do our wedding this way. I'm a procrastinator that hates worrisome little details. I do much better with fewer options, making quick snap judgements when in a time crunch.  But after some not-so-subtle urging from my concerned bridesmaids I realized there are just some things that I have to take care of before we leave for the trip.  The bridesmaid's dresses for example!  I finally decided on a dress for them. Its aqua blue, chiffon, knee length, strapless with a sweetheart neckline. Very beachy. Oh and my bridesmaid line up includes: Megan Meyer, Laura Gilbert, Jackie Joest and Stephanie Drennen. I wasn't born with any sisters but I look at them as the sisters I never had.  The old saying "friends are the family you that you get to choose" is so true. They are my sisters who love me and support me and don't buy my bullshit. I laugh with them and cry with them and make fun of life with them. These girls are my heart and soul and I'm so happy that they will be standing with me on the beach as I make the biggest promise in the world to the man I love.  Alright, lets get back to the dresses before I get all emotional and misty eyed. I'm a self proclaimed non-crier but lately I'm like waterworks central.  I'm just so happy I can't help it. I feel so fing lucky to have all these amazing people in my life. I still don't know what I did to deserve John's all encompassing love and undying devotion.  Ok, the dresses, Tina, the dresses. Stay focused. The next thing I need to figure out are shoes for them and accessories.  I'm thinking thong sling back flats in either gold or silver. NO clue about accessories yet! I'm going to go to Macy's tomorrow to hopefully get some ideas. Trolling the internet for inspiration has proved unsuccessful.  Ew and Wednesday my mom and I have a date to get my veil! Super excited for the veil as I don't have to starve myself in order to look good in it :) Also this week going groom suit shopping with John. Ugh he is going to be so frigging handsome I can't stand it. I could just stare at him all day. I could smell him all day too, it must be a chemical thing. Wow, I'm saying a lot of things right now. Am I drunk? Ok no, I just checked my drink, no alcohol. Just the musings of a crazy in love bride-to-be. Ahhh young love.

I think that about wraps it up for now. As far as my regular non-wedding life, everything is great. The summer has been a blur of sunny, hot weather, drinks on patios and lounging by the pool.  Hope everyone else is also having an amazingly sweaty summer!

Love,
Tina